just a few more words

I know I previously claimed that I had run out of words. And I cannot promise that these will mean anything, however I had a symbolic dream and it made me think a little. I had to share with someone, obviously.

In the dream, it was late at night and I was on a one way street. However, I was going the wrong way. Danger, right? Sadly enough, I couldn't stop. That one road was the only one taking me to where I needed to go. Where did I need to go? Who knows. Why was I going? I also don't know. But just fathom this: I was on the RIGHT road, going the WRONG way, and it was the only way to go. Sometimes, in life, bad things happen. Am I right? You're going to make poor decisions, that's a no-brainer. So what can you do? You run with it. Sometimes those bad decisions you make or the crummy stuff that happens to you build character- and the end product is a pretty nice one. All the things that happen begin to lead you to where you need to go.

I don't know where my life is headed honestly. Personally, I don't think I'm supposed to. I know that I've gone the "wrong way" a few times, but I also learned so greatly from it all. I believe I needed those things to happen to me in order to keep me going, and to give me some purpose in this life. I mean, what's this dish of life without a little flavor? What road are you on? Is it the wrong one? Is it the one that you think is right?


sorry for all the questions
much love,
Emma Jane

late night thoughts on pain

Lately here, I feel as though I have completely ran out of words to say. I've had lots of lyrics hit home, but finding words of my own? That's where the hard part comes in. I think it's appropriate to talk about pain. It's something very present in the lives of everyone. Pain is something that cannot be avoided, to any degree. Trying to control how you're feeling is also very pointless considering you just can't. (Imagine trying to keep the rain from falling. Impossible, right?) The amount of pain you're feeling shouldn't have to be validated by anyone else either. IF YOU'RE HURTING, IT'S OKAY. I don't care if you broke your phone screen, or someone broke your heart. Each experience still hurts us no matter what. Maybe I just say all of this because I'm a pessimist, but pain is very real and very unavoidable (Is that even a word?). Sometimes you gotta realize that you have very valid feelings and it's okay to be in this state where everything hurts. If you don't feel like getting out of bed today, that's okay. If the pain is so bad and the only thing you did today was to continue breathing, someone is proud of you. I'm proud of you. If we skirt around this idea that pain is only for the movies or your pain isn't important, trust me when I say: if you tell someone, they'll listen. Some people give worse advice than others, so choose wisely. You know what's always a good idea? A school counselor (Officially). But in reality, they can be pretty scary sometimes. I'd like to think that confiding in any close friend(s) is the way to go. IF they're really your friends, they'll be there to help you through your pain, because chances are: They're probably carrying around some of their own as well. Painful experiences become to feel like bricks on your back, and if you don't let them off, you're going to fall over.

That's all I've got.
Much love
& you're always gonna be okay
1 John 4:19