Relationships

I feel as though when you're in high school, a relationship is pretty important to you. It could be friendships, peer- relationships, or like romantic ones. God knows who's supposed to be in your life and who's not. I feel as though over the years He's put people in my life that I know are there for a purpose. I think God has also taken some away from me too because He's Omniscient. Since, he's all knowing, why do we have so much trouble putting this stuff into his hands? I don't know, just a little thought for today. God knows who's supposed to be in your life and who's not. He does these things for a purpose. Well, I'll probably post later but just remember that God knows what he's doing all the time.

Self- Image

Personally, I have a strong hatred towards society. In our society, being broken and sad is so normal now. In society, self-harm is a "thing". In society, skinny is the only "beautiful" thing out there. In society, everything that is right to us, is wrong. I think this is the problem. On the whole brokenness thing, there's so many people that are sad and I think 95% of the people are sad because they don't love themselves or love the life they're living. I was in a state like that a while ago but I realized something- my God loves me just the way I am. He created each one of us a certain way for a reason, you know? I know that he uses our weaknesses for greatness and our strengths to help others. Okay so with the self harm thing. Society deems so many things upon young women. We're required to act so beautiful and sophisticated and look a certain way and if we don't do that, we're not socially excepted. Self-harm, is a result of not enough love in my personal opinion. It all ties down to the way people love themselves. I believe depression definitely is a result from this, resulting in a state of self harm and pain. I also believe that self-harm or eating- disorders is a form of coping with certain things. Sometimes life is so hard and we believe that dying or hurting ourselves is way easier than living and it would make everyone's life easier if we were gone or hurt too. But this is not true, y'all.

I love having a God who loves me unconditionally because even when I'm thinking "I'm not good enough for society" He's just like that huge quilt of greatness and forgiveness wrapped around me every day.

Okay, beauty is the next topic here. I don't think the society's "beautiful" people exist really. Now, I know it seems quite strange to say that because of course, "beautiful" people are real, right? So often we hear that word and immediately come up with some model or people like Emma Watson who we deem as perfect. People though can be creative, athletic, outgoing, friendly, artistic, shy, blunt, full of smiles, tearful, scared, and many more. Why should somebody come and tell us which one of these traits get to fit into the category of "beauty"? Seriously, it's kind of crazy. It's also crazy how much our God loves us anyways no matter which one of those traits we are. We're all going to die eventually, so why should we waste our time trying to blend in with the rest of the crowd?

This is all a little scattered tonight, but you're getting my point-right? God is really, really, really, amazing because he loves you no matter what. Sometimes I think it's hard to love yourself when you thing about all of those terrible things you've done because you might think "How can anyone forgive me?" Our God, yeah, he forgives you for anything. It's pretty great considering how much I know that I personally mess up. God is also amazing because he puts so many blessings in your life when you feel as though you've got none. I'm so blessed with the friends I have in this new town, but that's just me. I hope y'all realize that God does know what he's doing, like he really does. Life gets so much easier with God in the master plans. He loves you. He loves me. He loves everyone. It's so amazing, really. I can't even love a lot of the people in this school, and our God loves everyone.

So sorry it was kinda out there and all over the place tonight,

I love you so much because y'all have been here through everything.

Much love again, Emma Jane.