Writing What I Know

They always say to "write what you know", so I'm trying to get better at documenting the days. I know that "what I know" will soon be changing, just like the rest of my life. Therefore, I'll try my best to write about it. However, throughout the years I think it's been astonishing that I've consistently known about heartbreak and falling in love, but on different scales. When I was younger, I fell in love with my family. When I was a little older, I fell in love with my friends, seeing what joy they bring me. On top of my love for my family and my friends, high school has shown me what it means to fall in love with another human being. And let me tell you, that's where I learned about heartbreak. When I was younger, my heart broke when I was forced to move away from Austin, Texas at 6 years old. When I was about 16, it broke at the hands of an individual treating me in the opposite of a God-pleasing way. (but God worked through me to help heal my wounds!!)

 Because of this, I've been able to write what I know. I believe I've always known heartbreak and falling in love, and how they make me really feel, but as I've grown, it all just gets more complex. I hope that they become even more complex as I grow, but that I get a little smarter along with them. I don't want any more heartbreak honestly, but I know it's coming with the complexity of my future. And boy, is that scary. I thought moving was the worst thing I could be put through when I was younger, then I thought the power a teenage boy had over me was the worst thing in the world, and I'm not prepared for what's going to come next. At the end of the day though, God's gonna take care of me. If he can have the whole world in his hands, then I know I'll be okay.

Sometimes though, I don't know anything. I think it's called "writer's block". With that, I usually start to talk about my day, and the people around me. Today was an exciting one, because I got to try something new. I got to experience a full-body massage. Which is awesome. I also went prom dress shopping, and went shopping with some friends for a guy friend of mine. Then, we all proceeded to go to Walmart and get stuff to make cookies.

With cookies made, and a prom dress shopped for, I would call today a success. I'm writing what I know, and I still think that isn't much. Maybe I knew more when I was 6 years old, or maybe I wish to only still know that much. However, I guess I've learned something along the way about different stages of falling in love, and the many stages of heartbreak. Through it all, I've mostly learned that I'm loved by my Savior, and that's what matters at the end of the day.


Thanks for reading:)

I hope you have a great day!

Emma Jane