Let It Pour.

Does anyone know that moment? The moment in the movies when the girl sits in her car, sees something that breaks her heart, and then hears the rain start to pour on her windshield? They usually play some sad soundtrack that helps explain what she’s feeling.

Today I had one of those moments. Usually in the movies, the girl starts to cry- but I'm heartless. Therefore, there were no tears whatsoever. 

But it did rain. 

My heart took a little punch. 

And Hello by Adele was playing in my car.

I tried writing when I was happy, but I'm pretty sure that this form of happiness is only temporary, nothing normal that lasts any longer than a few days. Today had me sad, yes. But sometimes you gotta be sad, because this like “forever happiness” is gonna come eventually. Maybe it will make up for all of the sad days. Because as much as I want to be this happy bundle of joy, I don't know how. And I don't think you can make yourself feel that way if you don't. A very wise woman once told me that “you cannot control how you feel”, and I've been running with that ever since.

I guess the lesson here is that the “happy high” runs out, and like

Most days,

You're gonna be the girl in the rain.

But if you're gonna be the girl in the rain, you might as well let it pour.