alone// sick day thoughts

YOU GUYS!! Amazon Music just put 5SOS available to download (heart eyes x 1 million)!!!!!!!!!!! Also, did you like the fiction? Should I post more or less? 

On a quite depressing note, however, this isn't all that much of a happy post.

Life has a funny rule where you can be good at something, but not like it. Or you can like it too, then you're lucky. You know what i'm good at? Well, two things actually:

1. being alone
2. taking care of people (actually, I like this one)

1. I say I'm good at being alone, because I actually am. I I do not like it. I really don't. Today especially, it's really gotten to me. I tell people "Oh yeah I'm great at being alone", but what I neglect to mention is that I really wish I wasn't most of the time. But that just is how life has worked itself out to be.

2. That brings me to my next point. Today I went home sick from school. I wasn't gonna go at all, but I have AP english and that's kinda a big deal to be present at that class. So yay me! I survived THREE whole class periods. I should get a medal for that (among lots of other things). But like I said, I went home because I was sick. I'll probably feel just as bad (or worse) tomorrow, but I'll be at that awful place (AKA school) anyways. All I wanted, all day, just from someone, was a text or a call or something from someone asking if I was okay. Or someone to say "Hey, how are you?"  However, I think that's just life. When you're the one who takes care of everyone, nobody takes care of you. Everyone calls me "mom" and I guess that's what it feels like to be one.

I also didn't go to the gym today. And yesterday I got told that I need to fix myself a little. I guess it's true, one day I'll be all "fixed" maybe. At least I'll start trying. Maybe. It's kinda iffy at this point in time.

Hey, at least my grades are good. Kind of. I'm trying at school at least. It's a start.

I hope you guys had a better day than I did:)

P.s I made chocolate chip peanut butter cookies on my little "day off" today :)
I might have been too full of cookies to eat dinner. Whoops.