Doors

Lately, I've come to discover that God opens some doors and closes others. The hard part is figuring out which one is which. Well, obvious a closed door for me would be the whole moving thing. That's a for sure closed door. I mean like stuff happens in life and sometimes we don't have the slightest power to control it. It's something that sometimes drives the control freak inside of me crazy. Personally, I've learned that when you give all of the control over to God, life gets easier. It gets much better, and your happiness increases.

Personally, football games are hard for me because of the homesickness that comes with every single one. I haven't figured out the blessing in that feeling yet- but it will come to me since our God is amazing beyond words. He really is. He knows what he's doing, even If I personally feel pretty awful at an event geared towards having fun. He's probably thinking "I have plans for her, she's just gonna have to tough it out for a while even though I'm watching over her." I don't know, I wish I knew what was in his mind, but he's so great and powerful that fathoming it is nearly impossible. You know what's amazing as well? There are so so so many people in this beautiful world that He created himself. And you know what? He cares about all of us. We aren't very reverent most of the time, realizing how powerful God actually is, you know? He's so powerful and he's so amazing that it's so hard to believe that he loves every single one of us with his entire heart. Well, he's got to have a whole lot of hearts or something. I don't know. I only know that even when I'm feeling down and upset about my control or my town or something that I can't change, He's always going to be there. God doesn't give up on us, he's the only one who doesn't, honestly.

 I just can't imagine or wrap my head around how much he loves us all because man, I've screwed up.  I've screwed up and hurt many people tonight and even though "We love because He first loved us" (1 John 4:19) It just gets harder and harder to love the ones who love us even. If we love because He loved us, than who's there to hurt? Hypothetically, this makes sense. In reality, I'm a screw up. I sin like a whole bunch like all of the time. Nobody's perfect, really. It's true, in case you didn't know that. I thank God because of how loving and nurturing and forgiving he is. We have an amazing and forgiving God and that's pretty great- so great that words can't even be used to describe it.

Oh, and my playing in band is getting better. It was rough and I was pretty much terrible, as you can see in my former posts, but I'm caught up to speed and I can feel myself getting better slowly. Just an off-topic note there. Kay, cool.

Basically, God opens and closes doors in your life constantly, you've gotta keep an eye out to figure out which ones those are. Oh, and God is in control and forgiving and just pretty much amazing.

Emma Jane

Romans 5:3-5