Screwing Up

Honestly, I've been screwing up a lot lately. I mean, hard-core screwing up. My life's a roller coaster right now, because I'm realizing that decisions we make affect other people. I mean we can't all be perfect all the time because that would be impossible. I don't think we can even get close to perfection. The only perfect one is Jesus Christ. Honestly, we should talk about him more often. He's so forgiving. We have a very forgiving God. Did you know that? 2 Corinthians 2:10 says "Anyone you forgive, I also forgive. And what I have forgiven- if there was anything to forgive- I have forgiven in the sight of Christ for your your sake..." That's pretty powerful stuff. We gotta learn how to forgive others because God already has been forgiving us since the day we were born. "Bear with each other and forgive one another if  any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you." Colossians 3:13.

The Bible says one thing, but our brains say another. You feel me? Like i've screwed up so badly, and I feel so unworthy of forgiveness to be honest. It truly is amazing how God's love, power, and might all work. He can cause you do do amazing things (like forgiving someone). I've probably said the word "forgive" or a form of that word so many times in this little blog post, but I don't care really. So what? I repeat things. God's love and mercy should be repeated. We should scream it and proclaim it to the heavens how forgiving He is.

If I ever learned one thing, It's that God can forgive us even when we can't even forgive ourselves. Psalm 130:4 says "But with you there is forgiveness, so that we can, with reverence, serve you." Now, that just speaks to me tonight. I just thank God for His amazing grace and love. With HIM lays forgiveness so that we can SERVE him gladly. In the song "Seek Ye First" the third verse goes:

"Man shall not live by bread alone,
But by every word
That proceeds out from the mouth of God.

Hallelu, Hallelujah!"

And we seriously couldn't do anything without God. Without God, there wouldn't be any true love. Without true love, forgiveness wouldn't exist. We can't live "by bread alone". It doesn't work like that. We're in need of God's amazing grace. I think it's spectacular that he loves us even when we aren't able to love ourselves. 

I hope you have a good week :)

Until next time, 

Emma Jane

Difficulty

So, today has got me thinking. Difficult things are always going to happen to us. I feel as though bad things are more frequent as we get older because God made it this way. It's so hard to trust his plan because we have one of our own. We think so often that we can run this marathon of life and go in a straight line for several years. Well, let me tell you what, my line has so many curves as if it's a rollercoaster. We have this dream picture in our head where everything works out just as we plan it, right? If everything works out like my dreams, I'll be a famous author living in Paris, married to a wonderful husband. Somehow, you and I both know that's probably not going to happen. I'm not sure if you're on much social media, but there's this quote floating around and it says "Let go and let God." Honestly, I really love it. It doesn't mean to sit on our bums and let him control every aspect of our lives, but we do need to relinquish our control while serving him at the same time. Everything we do should be to love and praise him, even when he turns our life into a 180 spin on a rollercoaster. Let me tell you something. That's a really really hard thing to do. It's so hard to praise God when you feel like the world is crushing down on you. When you feel alone, unworthy of love, and unloved. It's so easy to ask "Why me? Why do I even feel this way?" Well, only God can answer that question. I do believe that everything in our life happens for a reason. We might lose people who we love, we might gain some who can't love us. I also firmly believe that doors have to close, because God knows exactly how to open up that small window. If we cling so strongly to that door (Like on Monsters Inc.), then what do we have to gain? What do we have to lose knowing God's in control of our lives? We should be celebrating because of his glorious plan. On Sunday we looked at Isaiah 40:30-31. It says "Even youth grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."

Well, I love you guys.

Until next time,

Emma Jane.